Knowing is just to know...

The feeling of working hard, preparing yourself for the impossible.
To know that you can't possibily give more... To know you gave your best,
you gave your life and you poured all that you have, all that you are into that little thing...

And then comes the time, then comes the test and you can't breath. You can't give because you have poured it all out, you gave all you had and Now!!!! Now there is nothing left. nothing except this hollow feeling inside.

And it leaves you devastated and you can't even cry, it makes you sick... Then there is the knowing...
The knowing that you've failed, the knowing like a mother-to-be who knows the time has come to PUSH! To let go...

The knowing that the moment has past and you can never do it all over again... and that you can never recover that which is lost...

and the knowing that the time has come to move on ahead...