Journey to another life- part one...

When we started out, the sun was just rising, and I had a headache from awakening. We had yoghurt for breakfast and I was wearing jeans along with my new CAT water proof jacket, (I still had to proof that proof..). Anyway as we reversed  out the drive way we waving goodbye to those we leave behind, we hit the road and start on our journey, to another world and life...

Yeah, yeah I know its just another country, but sometimes life could be so different in some places that you would think it to be the comings and goings of another world. I can't exactly say everything that happened on the first part of that journey, because I must confess, I slept right through it...

Our first stop was in Nylstroom, to get some refreshments before we headed on towards the border, and thats when I saw it the first time... there's a bug squashed on my windowscreen... the first of many to die in the progress of our journey...

                                                                                                  to be continued..... lol, this is fun! :-)

A few of my short poems

Anticipation-or not

I thought I was ready to leave the nest, that my wings knew the strokes of the wind, I thought  I knew how to dip,dive and soar,  I thought all I had to do was spread my wings and take that  step of faith,

It wasn't that easy, I would know...

I anticipated to go, but now I just want to hold on...

Life is not the same without you...

My ode to you.... dear mother...

My childhood was the days when you called me for the first time,

It is the day when your anguished screams brought me to life and we could join in one glorious cry... when tears of joy dripped from your cheek unto my bright red little face...

Those first few hours I screamed at the world, it was then when anyone else would have abandoned me when you loved me... you loved me first and held me even when your world fell apart, you have and will always be there. 

With you by my side I could never feel alone, when the darkness threatend to overtake me, you brouht the light into my world, you taught me your values and believes, you introduced me to my best friend and Heavenly Father...

You stood by me through the trails and hardships of life, you taught me how to take care of myself.You taught me to be gracefull and ever gratefull...  you dried my tears and caught me when I fell.

You tought me how to be brave, and how to laugh even if your world is falling down...You are my rolemodel and I'm forever indebted to you... 

This is my ode to you.... dearest mother...

Fear... worth it or not

You know, over the last year and few days... I believe that I've come to discover the true feeling of fear. It really isn't pleasant at all.

First your heart beats little faster like when your see that cute guy or girl for the first time, then it starts to race faster like as if you've run the marathon... boom...boom...boombooombooom... faster and faster, then it feels like some iron hand has clasped it grip unto it... then your stomach muscles starts to tighten and your bowls loosen, your breath becomes rasping and your nerves starts to shake then you feel like your on the verge of a break down and like you are going to pass out.....

that my fiend is fear.... except the feeltng is worse than any of these words could ever describe... 

Fear is what I felt at the beginning of my matric year,it was my companion when I wrote my matric, and trails... it is still here when lightning strikes or thunder roars, but I would be a fool to let it run my life...

For then I'll be quaesy for ever, I cannot change that which has happened in the past, instead I should be working on improving the future...

I am worried sick about my results, but I should not fear it...

A wise woman once told me that: 'that which you fear most usually come to past, so it's best not to fear at all, then no evil can ever do you harm.'